ok, so over depression now. November 26, 2007

ok, done being depressed.im ok now, yay! haha, thanks merilyn for that SUPER long comment on the previous post(if you want to read it, you might want to be ready to spend 5 minutes or more on reading it), thanks for your concern too! yea, i kinda exagerrated when i said i was going to kill myself, i mean, I AM TOTALLY SCARED OF DYING!!! really.im scared of pain.oh anyway, i added a tagboard, in case you didn’t see what i wrote at the side of the page, i’ll tell you where it is: click on the top right thing that reads: ’speak your mind and your heart will follow’ then click on the view shoutbox thingy, and then POOF! you’re there! then you can tag!! ooo, cool.

okok, im getting lame now.

ok anyway, you people better faster send in your choices for sec school.

the deadline is in 2 days.

ok, heres a list of things i want to do before this year is over:

1. go to my bestie’s house
2. get my bestie to come to my house
3. go iceskating with my bestie
4. take neoprint with my bestie
5. go shopping!!!
6. go shopping for christmas presents(its different from shopping!)
7. go to new sushi teh outlet near my house
8. go to bestie’s birthday party
9. go to hongkong and enjoy myself
10. go to class gathering at east coast park

 ooo, thats about it.

cool, i hope i can do it all.

especially the stuff with my bestie!

ok. im basically done now,

eliz, hope you come back soon!!!

natalie (:

depression. ): November 23, 2007

damn.i wish i could die now.maybe i should call one of those numbers they asked us to copy down, the youth service thingy and the SOS thingy.i seriously feel like dying now, i mean, how could i????

how could I:

• dissapoint my folks(mom and dad)
• make myself so depressed
• cause myself to cry and embarass myself

yes, that is what i have done, i have got LOUSY MARKS FOR PSLE and disappointed myself and my mom and dad.wanna know how much i got? i got…….

……………………….

237, with higher chinese it will be 239

there.

i said it. you can all gasp now.

ok, i’ve got a question, why is it that almost everyone else i know got like way higher than me, am i like dumb or something, i worked so hard, but in the end, it doesn’t pay off. my mom said:

“you’re not dumb, people are just smarter than you”

yeah.right. as if. thanks for the encouragement but i am dumb, so so dumb, EXTREMELY extremely dumb, i mean 237(plus two) is like extremely low, wish i got 253 or something higher, i mean, bernice got 245, thats like so good, well, at least better than my stupid marks.i wish i had 253, i wish i had 253, you know, if i keep saying it, it might come true, well, it might.

sigh.

living life so aimlessly, see ya in the future

natalie(hopelessly depressed)

suspence isn’t all bad November 21, 2007

you wanna know who choconats and berries are, they are….. goood friends, they need each other, choconats completes berries, berries completes choconats, they belong together, chocolates doesn’t taste as good without berries, berries doesn’t taste as good wothout chocolates, they must be together, cannot be apart.

hahaha, maybe one day i will reveal the real identity, feel free to guess, maybe some of you have already guessed correctly, some of you think you know who they are, but soon, pretty soon, i will reveal the identity of the duo. see ya,

natalie

blog things November 20, 2007

well, here are some quizzys that i got from my friend, faye. thanks faye.

You Are an Okay Student

You know how to get by school, but your heart isn’t always in it. Motivation is a problem for you. Maybe you need to study something more exciting!

Are You a Good Student?

haha, next one.

You Are A Good Friend

You’re always willing to listenOr lend a shoulder to cry onYou’re there through thick and thinMany people consider you their “best friend”!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

 yea. umm, a few more..

 

Your Japanese Name Is…

Yayoi Nakayama

What’s your Japanese Name?

ooo, next one is cool…

What Natalie Means

N is for NaturalA is for Amorous T is for Trustworthy A is for Ambitious L is for Lovable I is for Important E is for Ebullient

What Does Your Name Mean?

haha.okok, done with quizzys, hey people, remember to read my previous post, its a nice one, thanks.

bye,

natalie

incomplete. November 20, 2007

my mind is blank, my head is empty, im freaking out. oh, im sure you know what im talking about, PSLE results ! im totally scared for a few reasons: 1. dunno if i’ll get really really low, 2. scared cause i thought it was okay but everyone in the other schools said it was really hard(math) and newspaper parents said that science was tough too, 3. dunno if i’ll choose nanyang or nanhua if get 251-255(GB!! i want GB!!) , 4.really want to go same school as my bestie friend(yea, i knew what you were talking about*wink*) yea, for these few reasons, im scared for results!!! I’m sure im not the only one…. right? i sure hope not, otherwise i’ll be the only one freaking out over this. okok, enough freaking.

————————–

why would anyone do that, its beyond mean, i mean, they probably think its nothing wrong, but they wouldn’t know, how would they feel if someone were to do that to them, i mean talk about mean!

———————————

sigh. right after my bestie friend just went offline, my internet just starting to work, before that, my internet system was like not working at all! so sad, want to discuss and talk to her(my bestie, not the internet, LOL), but she’s offline, her father must have bring her and her little brother somewhere, like yesterday. hmm, oh well, guess i’ll just talk to other people.although, it doesn’t feel the same.

—————————————-

remember the song addiction post i wrote quite long ago, well, it is true and all, but i know one song that will never die! its…..(drum intro)…… graduation song by vitamin C, well, its been around since dunnowhen, and everyone has heard of it, and everyone likes it(well, most people)so, i think(don’t go all scientific) i can conclude that it will never grow old, its such a great song!

—————————–

do you know what its like,

to have somebody who understands you,

somebody who likes you for who you are,

somebody that never judges you,

when they are talking to you, you feel like you can really trust them,

they keep your secrets and defend you when you need it,

they help you when you are in most need,

they will never critisize you, no matter what you do,

they never call you lame, they always laugh along with you.

that, is a true friend, a friend that will go to the ends of the earth, till they find the things you need, a friend that will hang on with you through the “ups” and the “downs”, cause they’ve got someone to believe in. thats what im talking about.

okok, done here,

natalie (choconats and berries rock!)

sorry, omg, im so sorry. November 19, 2007

i’ve just realised that my previous few posts are totally boring(im so slow ), its so true, no wonder nobody comments and look at how many people come to this blog, only like …(the number at the side of the blog), but look at bernice’s, so many people, she started later than me, well, maybe cause she has so many more friends than me and stuff, but her blog posts are always interesting, they always have something, something that makes people go to her blog just to see if there are new posts, mine doesn’t, i wouldn’t be suprised if i see that for the next week i don’t get any emails saying that i have to moderate my blog.IM JUST SO BORING. cry, sob, but seriously, im really boring, i mean, why do i even bother to have a blog, so i thank you, bernice, joeline, elizabeth and jingwen, for bothering to come to my blog, i thank you, but besides that, nobody comes, its a sad truth, but its true none the less, so yeah, thansk, hope this post does better than my previous ones, sorry about that, sorry that my blog doesn’t have interesting bits and bites, sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry.

ok, done with the sorrying.oh yeah, remember i said that i was going to cry during graduation, well, i didn’t, no, not at all, just felt really sad while eating my lunch, and when i was at home. i really wanted to cry, but i just couldn’t, i just dunno why, but i couldn’t cry, i wanted to when they showed our P2 pics, i wanted to when the teachers sang for us, i wanted to at the end of it all, but i didn’t, i couldn’t, I DIDN”T CRY.

oh well, thats all for now,

natalie (choconats doesn’t even beat berries )

I can’t believe it November 18, 2007

woah.don’t you realise that every post i write has a different name, for bernice’s posts too. Well, thats how we make things more interesting you know, if the names were repeated, then very bad for our business leh! KIDDING. oh, anyway, what i can’t believe is that we have separated,

oh please, you haven’t gotten over that, see you! i won’t even bother to look at the rest of this post, BYE!!

thats probably what you would think, but really!!!! i seriously cannot believe this is the end, i can’t be, it really really can’t be the end, i cannot let go of 6B’s FOND FOND memories, i can’t, i mean, we had so much fun, we shared so many laughs, and now, we are parting, and we may not meet again, for some of us, and for some lucky few, we will continue our bonds of friendships till who knowswhen, oh wait, when have you heard this, oh yea, i just wrote that in my previous blog, how stupid and dumb of me, repeating it over and over, but i just have nothing to say, i mean, all i can think about is 6B, 6B, 6B!!!! I will really miss everyone sooooooooooooo MUCH!! I love 6B, everyone in 6B, we rock forever and ever.

 byes people, too sian already.

natalie (:

aww man. November 16, 2007

its over.it happened.you know what I’m taking about.Graduation.it happened, we have parted, separated.so sad. anyway, hope we can have a gathering next year for 6B’07, hope so, but dunno who will organise, if nobody, maybe i will organise, but hope can someone else, cause like, i don’t really know how to organise chalet and stuff.

ok, change of topic. actually, i have nothing much to say. EXCEPT, CHOCONATS AND BERRIES ROCK, won’t tell you what that is, but soon, i might reveal, so keep coming to my site, cause i will reveal it soon. hahaha.

see ya,

natalie ( CHOCONATS AND BERRIES ROCK!)

huh? its over tomorrow? November 14, 2007

everything ends tomorrow, our primary school life, for some of us, friendships, bonds that held us together since who knows when, i can’t believe it, its finally over ); a few things i will do:

• CRY
• GIVE ALL MY FRIENDS A BIG HUG
• TAKE PICS WITH ALL MY FRIENDS
• TELL THE PEOPLE I HAVE OFFENDED THAT I AM SORRY

GOSH! I am such a big baby, i mean, i hate changes, seriously, i always freak out when there are changes, especially BIG ones, i hate the big changes. ): (folds arms and makes a face like a little kid) changes seem to make our lives miserable, don’t they, i mean, i can’t be the only one who hates changes, am i right? why can’t things just stay as they are, in fact, i wish 6B is my sec 1 class, that way, we can spend another 2 glorious years together, but, things are always not what they seem, next year, you might hear me saying, oh i love my sec1 class, we rock or something, but my feelings for 6B’07 will NEVER change, im serious.6B rocks forever. ♥6B♥

sigh. leaving our memories sure is hard. well, maybe the person who will be least sad is chen kang, i mean, he’s only been here for this year, but maybe he has learned to love nanyang as we have.it is possible.well, taking pictures might help me heal, or maybe it will make me miss everyone even more than i already do.

well, i hope its the first one.well, might be going to bernice’s house during the hols.anyone, if you are free, invite me to your house to spend quality time together, that would help me end my primary school days happily.(: YOU GUYS BETTER NOT FORGET ME, I”LL KILL YOU IF YOU DO, no la, but try not to forget me, ok?

ks, bye everyone, this is our final chapter of our primary school days, woah, spoken like a poet (:

natalie

Misery loves company November 13, 2007

that means, when you are sad, you would wish you had someone to confide in, its a proven fact. i can’t believe we are going to leave nanyang, i think i will cry, seriously, i would be so sad during the hols if we didn’t stay in touch, i wish we could stay on, and not graduate, i mean, seperating is a part of life, but i can’t except it, i just can’t, you probably think im being such a baby about this, but i hate changes, almost every year, something or somebody will separate with me, seriously, there is one every year. i feel like listing them, but it would make me cry.Gosh, sorry, i didn’t mean to make everyone pity me or anything, just pouring out my emotions, don’t mind me, sometimes i talk crap.

changed my name, also changed my theme, at first i wanted to change back to the one that bernice has(i had it before her, but she didn’t copy me), but i don’t want people to think that i copied her, and i also want her permission first. ok, im gonna wait for her approval first.

on grad day, im gonna give a letter to some people, to thank them for helping me, and telling them that i appreciate them.I LOVE YOU GUYS, you have helped me through thick and thin, you guys ROCK!!! wanna shoutout to all my friends(you know who you are!)

oh, ok, i have nothing to say, just that, im really gonna miss everyone.

ok, nothing interesting le.

bye,

natalie